1. Let go
Climbing up the first hill was the toughest! Since it's Lord Srinivasa, I decided to go uphill with empty stomach, at least to start with..As soon as we reached step 250, I couldn't put another step forward and I was dizzy! Hubby's friend's wife (she's my friend too) gave me glucose and I felt little better. Another 5 steps and again I couldn't! Mind was saying 1000 things at the same time:
How bad of me in delaying the climb, what will his friend and his wife think?
how am I going to complete?
what if I delay and what if the return trip to Chennai would also get delayed? how mom and dad would manage kids again for another night?
how kids would miss us? etc etc..
it was all blocking me physically too!
Suddenly, hubby said it's really OK..take your time and you can! walk at your own pace, it's OK even if v return late back home. don't worry.
We asked his friend and his wife to proceed and not to wait for us.
I then realized I need to let go of things! I told myself that I'm not worried about anything at the moment and prayed to God to forgive me and help me reach him. That was the moment! After repeating that to me a couple of times, I found the will power to accomplish the task at hand. I was able to walk.
This "Let go" taught me that only the present moment is important!
2. piecemeal
After another 50 steps I again felt tired and asked my hubby to get me some juice! That lemon juice was the elixir!! Sipping it, I motivated myself to climb up by mentally setting another 50 steps as the target. 20 Steps and take rest was the motto.
Breaking the task at hand energises us!
3. Don't c how much more, c how far u have come
After climbing the second hill, I really felt tired. When I sat for another break with lemon juice, my hubby pointed to me to look back and see how much we have come and not to focus on how much more to go!
That was so true! Looking back at the accomplishment motivated me to proceed.
4. surrender he'll take us
While climbing, I was telling my mind to ask forgiveness to the Lord and tell him it's not me but him who has to take me forward. I knew deep inside that he's guiding me and that he would take me to him provided when I drop my ego and other sacks off my shoulders and mind. The moment I did it, I was able to climb and I didn't want to rest till I reach Muzhangal Mudichu.(that's the last hill and equally tough as the first one).
5. compare others coming along
As we neared the last hill, hubby wanted me to sit down for 10 minutes and take a break! As we were talking, we observed so many people walking up the hill. Some were old men and women, some walked with their kids on their shoulders, some women carried their toddlers while climbing! I was amazed and at the same time ashamed that I was not able to carry my own self up but look at these people! They were my inspiration that day.
Look around, Inspiration is all around us!
6. Final goal:
As we started walking up Muzhangal mudichu, someone behind was telling his son and daughter that this generation is the result of Junk food! Yes, I thought junk physically and mentally!
how many things we people keep accumulating in our mind and body?! Knowing so well that it's unnecessary.
As we neared, my mind was chanting only his name and as soon as we reached, we saw our friends waiting for us! They reached 30 minutes earlier and it had taken 3hours and 15 minutes for us to complete the climb! watta record for someone who was in bed for almost 10 months and who never knelt down or did any physical exercise, and for someone who's taking care of the kids and the home for the past 2.5 years without any much physical activity other than the chores.
7. The why's:
We waited in the queue for about an hour and after that there wasn't any waiting! But why that 1.5 hours? We reached the temple entrance! Here were we stopped! We couldn't understand why!
Our question was answered in no time! The Lord had kalyana utsavam inside and was coming out of the temple for Vasantotsavam! He gave us the darshan first and we were let in bangaru vakili(the golden entrance) and all around us were Govindaa namam. As we neared, I didn't know who was around me and it wasn't in my mind for sure. I went in and walked in the central queue and was looking only at HIM! I was crying, mesmerized in his beauty and looks and within no time, we were outside the entrance! It was all over! We then collected the free prasadam and then the Laddu prasadam and came down to Tirupati only to start back home in an hours time.
The fruits of the efforts:
The sweet Laddu prasadam with the sweetest darshan of the Lord! As we started downhill, we prayed to the God to give us another darshan soon :)
Climbing up the first hill was the toughest! Since it's Lord Srinivasa, I decided to go uphill with empty stomach, at least to start with..As soon as we reached step 250, I couldn't put another step forward and I was dizzy! Hubby's friend's wife (she's my friend too) gave me glucose and I felt little better. Another 5 steps and again I couldn't! Mind was saying 1000 things at the same time:
How bad of me in delaying the climb, what will his friend and his wife think?
how am I going to complete?
what if I delay and what if the return trip to Chennai would also get delayed? how mom and dad would manage kids again for another night?
how kids would miss us? etc etc..
it was all blocking me physically too!
Suddenly, hubby said it's really OK..take your time and you can! walk at your own pace, it's OK even if v return late back home. don't worry.
We asked his friend and his wife to proceed and not to wait for us.
I then realized I need to let go of things! I told myself that I'm not worried about anything at the moment and prayed to God to forgive me and help me reach him. That was the moment! After repeating that to me a couple of times, I found the will power to accomplish the task at hand. I was able to walk.
This "Let go" taught me that only the present moment is important!
2. piecemeal
After another 50 steps I again felt tired and asked my hubby to get me some juice! That lemon juice was the elixir!! Sipping it, I motivated myself to climb up by mentally setting another 50 steps as the target. 20 Steps and take rest was the motto.
Breaking the task at hand energises us!
3. Don't c how much more, c how far u have come
After climbing the second hill, I really felt tired. When I sat for another break with lemon juice, my hubby pointed to me to look back and see how much we have come and not to focus on how much more to go!
That was so true! Looking back at the accomplishment motivated me to proceed.
4. surrender he'll take us
While climbing, I was telling my mind to ask forgiveness to the Lord and tell him it's not me but him who has to take me forward. I knew deep inside that he's guiding me and that he would take me to him provided when I drop my ego and other sacks off my shoulders and mind. The moment I did it, I was able to climb and I didn't want to rest till I reach Muzhangal Mudichu.(that's the last hill and equally tough as the first one).
5. compare others coming along
As we neared the last hill, hubby wanted me to sit down for 10 minutes and take a break! As we were talking, we observed so many people walking up the hill. Some were old men and women, some walked with their kids on their shoulders, some women carried their toddlers while climbing! I was amazed and at the same time ashamed that I was not able to carry my own self up but look at these people! They were my inspiration that day.
Look around, Inspiration is all around us!
6. Final goal:
As we started walking up Muzhangal mudichu, someone behind was telling his son and daughter that this generation is the result of Junk food! Yes, I thought junk physically and mentally!
how many things we people keep accumulating in our mind and body?! Knowing so well that it's unnecessary.
As we neared, my mind was chanting only his name and as soon as we reached, we saw our friends waiting for us! They reached 30 minutes earlier and it had taken 3hours and 15 minutes for us to complete the climb! watta record for someone who was in bed for almost 10 months and who never knelt down or did any physical exercise, and for someone who's taking care of the kids and the home for the past 2.5 years without any much physical activity other than the chores.
7. The why's:
We waited in the queue for about an hour and after that there wasn't any waiting! But why that 1.5 hours? We reached the temple entrance! Here were we stopped! We couldn't understand why!
Our question was answered in no time! The Lord had kalyana utsavam inside and was coming out of the temple for Vasantotsavam! He gave us the darshan first and we were let in bangaru vakili(the golden entrance) and all around us were Govindaa namam. As we neared, I didn't know who was around me and it wasn't in my mind for sure. I went in and walked in the central queue and was looking only at HIM! I was crying, mesmerized in his beauty and looks and within no time, we were outside the entrance! It was all over! We then collected the free prasadam and then the Laddu prasadam and came down to Tirupati only to start back home in an hours time.
The fruits of the efforts:
The sweet Laddu prasadam with the sweetest darshan of the Lord! As we started downhill, we prayed to the God to give us another darshan soon :)
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